GROWING UP!!

On my Birthday this year the craziest thing happened to me... I was looking in the mirror and all of a sudden it hit me...I am a grown ass man! But the crazy part about that is it just hit me I AM A GROWN ASS MAN!! I have never been so terrified in my life. Up until this point I was taking life for granted you know still livin in the past or just for right now,never preparing for the future. The truth is I never thought I would make it this far at 15 they told me I wouldnt see 16 at 17 no 18 at 18 no 21 at 21 I was never supposed to see 25...next year GOD WILLING I will be turning 30 I have been living to die for so long I never took the time to learn how to live. I damn near cried standing there looking in the mirror and coming to that conclusion. I couldn’t breathe my damn heart was pounding, hand shaking, eyes watering up and a lump in my throat....what in the hell was happening! I have been thru some rough shit in my life but nothing has ever shook me like this shit. Standing there my reflection begin to change I saw 15again 16,17.18.19.20 my whole crazy, violent, abandoned, misunderstood, drug induced, loved, cherished, miserable,wonderful life. It was like being on a roller coaster that went up slowly like it was takin you straight to heaven....then without warning WHOA...your stomach drops and it feels like your heading straight for hell. Then right when you think it’s going to stay rough it mellows out.(crazy) This felt like it was going on 4ever but right then my baby boy says DADDY !!! and boom I’m back. I look in the mirror and not to be conceited but I have never been more handsome in my life..lol I felt so light and free and I had a new RESPECT for my life. And the people in it who mean it when they say honey,daddy, brother,son,cousin and friend MY LIFE WOULDN’T BE COMPLETE WITHOUT YOU!! So as I gathered myself and looked down at my youngest son,who asks dad what were you doing? To which I reply GROWIN UP man GROWIN UP!!! So thanx 4 listening or reading...1ne!

WHAT SHE SAID 2 ME!

Who the hell do you think you are 2 love me and leave me alone? All those times you told me you wanted 2 make this house a home! I would have never let you touch my soul or make my spirit moan. When we XXXperimented eachothers space, Everything in my life was right and seemed like it could never go wrong. Now we’ve just found out I’m pregnant!!...and all of a sudden the streets your ready to roam!!! You cant even look me in the eyes!...and face me like a man!!! But you choose to do it over the phone as if you never gave a damn!! What about our wedding plans and all that fancy shit?!! I SWEAR IF I SAW YOU RIGHT NOW IN YOUR MUTHA%^KING FACE I WOULD SPIT!!! ABANDONING YOUR RESPONSIBILITIES SHOWING YOUR UNBORN CHILD AND ME NO R-E-S-P-E-C-T!!!! I Would explain to you how hurt I am;but you don’t care so I wont even bother. But just know this you SON-OF-A-BITCH!!!....YOU MAY BE THIS BABY’S DADDY BUT YOU’LL NEVER BE HIS FATHER!!!!! While she was saying this 2 me she was snapping her fingers and shaking her head. Then she took a sip of her beer rolled her eyes and said......Son when your father walked out on us thats what i said!!!!! (end) p.s. then she said go to the store and get me some ciggarettes....lmao..sorry mommy....lol.lol.lolhahahahahahahahaha..I AM REALLY LAUGHING MY ASS OFF!!!!

I REFUSE 2 STAY DOWN Current mood: breezy Category: Writing and Poetry I was born 2lbs and 4oz to a mother who smoked 2lbs and 4oz to a father who sold 2lbs and 4oz but I refused to stay down. My life was left in ruins when me and my mother were seperated I felt pain in my heart worse than the pain the nation felt the day J.F.K was assassinated... the devil jumped on my back and he never even hesitated things that seemed to be so easy became so complicated but I refused 2 stay down. Iwas arrested by white police who didn’t have all the facts, found guilty by a white jury who didn’t have all the facts, sentenced by a white judge who didn’t have all the facts..but I refused 2 stay down I was denied for being a muslim, crucified for being a christian, criticized for being a bapist,and then when I decided to turn my back on religion I was cursed for being an atheus but I refused 2 stay down. I was born out of wedlock raised up in gridlock jumped, stabbed, shot and locked came up out of all that and now look what I got....I got 2 beautiful son’s who are going to be raised to be nothing less than soldiers a college degree that’s gonna last me until I get older still rising with the weight of the world on my shoulders..and I refuse 2 stay down. And when this life is over and my body is decapitated my soul was always on fire so there’s no reason to cremate it and even if I ended up in hell with the devils foot on my neck and he weighed over a thousand pounds...I would look him in his face and smile and say you dealing with a SOLDIER and I REFUSE 2 STAY DOWN!!!!!!! BY... HAZEL LUCIANO!!

FAMILY...(FAM-A-LIE)

FAMILY...(FAM-A-LIE) It is almost crazy how people in ya family who claim they love you treat you sometimes!! Instead of trying to find the right in your life, only the wrong they find.When times get tough they always claim to keep it real, but you find they only pretend.These are the same people who get angry when you skip over them and confide in a friend. The same people who claim to really want to hear your problems and before you open ya mouth. They speak: then you got your eyes close, hands together, knees bent, praying for GOD to help them work there problems out.T he same people who tell you ur dreams are stupid, your goals are meaningless and your thoughts are full of risk.Then tell others they said ur dreams are corageous your goals are reachable and your thoughts are full of bliss.."AINT THAT SOME 2FACED SHIT"!!!So in these people you can take your chances and on them you can rely. You can give them advice until ur blue in the face and hope it will apply. Share your deepest secrets and fears with them and hope they'll keep'em secure until they die. But when dealing with ya family, sometimes you dont know whether to say DAMN that's my FAMILY!!!! or DAMN!!!.....that's my (FAM-A-LIE!!!) p.s. dont throw stones if you live in a glass house......1ne! BY HAZEL!