GROWING UP!!

On my Birthday this year the craziest thing happened to me... I was looking in the mirror and all of a sudden it hit me...I am a grown ass man! But the crazy part about that is it just hit me I AM A GROWN ASS MAN!! I have never been so terrified in my life. Up until this point I was taking life for granted you know still livin in the past or just for right now,never preparing for the future. The truth is I never thought I would make it this far at 15 they told me I wouldnt see 16 at 17 no 18 at 18 no 21 at 21 I was never supposed to see 25...next year GOD WILLING I will be turning 30 I have been living to die for so long I never took the time to learn how to live. I damn near cried standing there looking in the mirror and coming to that conclusion. I couldn’t breathe my damn heart was pounding, hand shaking, eyes watering up and a lump in my throat....what in the hell was happening! I have been thru some rough shit in my life but nothing has ever shook me like this shit. Standing there my reflection begin to change I saw 15again 16,17.18.19.20 my whole crazy, violent, abandoned, misunderstood, drug induced, loved, cherished, miserable,wonderful life. It was like being on a roller coaster that went up slowly like it was takin you straight to heaven....then without warning WHOA...your stomach drops and it feels like your heading straight for hell. Then right when you think it’s going to stay rough it mellows out.(crazy) This felt like it was going on 4ever but right then my baby boy says DADDY !!! and boom I’m back. I look in the mirror and not to be conceited but I have never been more handsome in my life..lol I felt so light and free and I had a new RESPECT for my life. And the people in it who mean it when they say honey,daddy, brother,son,cousin and friend MY LIFE WOULDN’T BE COMPLETE WITHOUT YOU!! So as I gathered myself and looked down at my youngest son,who asks dad what were you doing? To which I reply GROWIN UP man GROWIN UP!!! So thanx 4 listening or reading...1ne!